#i am so incredibly grateful for him
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#my dad is such a good man#he is not perfect and there are times when he disappoints me#but he has never left me in even the shadow of a doubt as to whether or not he loved me or if he would be there for me when i needed him.#i love him so much#(i'm putting this in the tags because tumblr loves to jump on people who say positive things about fathers)#but mine is legitimately probably one of the top dads in the country and i love him so so much#i am so blessed to have such a kind and loving man as my father#because his father was a terrible man#and he made it his life's goal to be a good father so his children wouldn't suffer the way he did#he has always put us first above his own wishes and happiness#i am so incredibly grateful for him#the Lord was so good to me
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I've been trying to make a post about the OMITB finale but I'm just. Overwhelmed. It was too good. I was in tears as soon as the episode started and I kept tearing up all the way through. I suppose it starts with finding your hero. I can't do it, Sazz. Oh, I can't do it by myself / That's why I'm here. Sazz was kind to everyone. He's gonna get you, my... number... one. You know, I appreciate this movie in a whole different way now; I mean, Sazz wrote this. It's just so, so special to have an amazing show like this that's centered on platonic bonds and the love between friends. I loved the wedding, of course, but the true relationship at the core of this show is the one between the trio, and the true relationship at the core of this season was the one between Charles and Sazz, and the way they went about it was everything to me.
I love you, OMITB. You're the most wonderful funky little comfort show ever. Never change.
#god. damn it.#HOW do they do it folks. how??? every season is better than the last this is genuinely such a gift of a show#sazz... oh my god sazz... she found her hero in charles... she wanted to write *his* story because she loved and admired him so much#IM GOING TO BE SICK (/pos)#and the complete *trust*. the way she just knew charles would solve her murder. i'll cry again oh my god i love this show so much#charles and oliver went UP ON A LEDGE A FUCKTON OF FEET IN THE AIR to save mabel OH MY GOD#i just. i just. i can't articulate just how much this show means to be this was so beautiful#i loved the wedding ofc!!! and im really sad to see loretta leave! but i hope we'll still manage to see her at least once next season#also im caling it now. the dame at the end is the murderer in s5#i know because i was instantly attracted to her. and that's how i knew who the killers were in s1 and s3#(do not ask me about the victim DO NOT ask me about the victim i am NOT ready to deal with it oh my GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!)#we're in for a spetacular s5 folks! and i already can't wait!#but in the meantime... AMAZING INCREDIBLE s4 im so grateful it was such a magical experience#everybody say thank you omitb!!!#omitb#omitb spoilers#omitb s4
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Art Commissioned from @diistortion (glitchmoth).
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#○ — 「 visage 」 who is like god.#( Luke put far to much effort into this )#( I didn’t pay him to do all of that )#( but they did incredible and I am so grateful )#( Mike looks amazing sitting in Al’s room )#( and look at that sweater! it has deer on it! )
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ngl seeing ur posts actually teared me up a bit. im demiaroace and went thru a rlly bad toxic relationship. its hard for me to fall in love w people in general bc of this but im always loving fictional characters. so this past one has been rlly rlly hard for me, but fictional characters always have made me feel better (this has been a whole thing w me since i was little due to trauma & abuse). i guess i dont rlly consider myself fictosexual? maybe i kinda am? ive drawn personas and self shipped but mostly i just draw ships and live vicariously thru them heh. but seeing you, your posts, how cute you and rayman are together. idk it gives me hope? like im actually tearing up NOW HSSHSH idk i just. find it so sweet? how you guys found each other. and idk it gives me hope that love will happen to me one day ig? IDK how to explain it but im very happy for you guys, congrats on almost 1 year!! and never stop bc you guys have such a deep bond and yeah!! #raylex !!!
anon oh my GOODNESS, you are gonna be the one to make ME tear up! this is such a sweet and lovely message to receive... 🥺 you have no idea how happy I am to know that I can give you even just a little bit of hope that love will come your way someday. I promise it will! I'm so sorry for what you had to go through, but please know that I am cheering you on all the way for a bright future! 💖
#my situation is... incredibly abnormal to say the least haha. but I am EXTREMELY happy and secure in my relationship with ray 🫶#I am so grateful to have him in my life. and I'm sure that one day you will find the same kind of love anon! don't lose hope! <3#asks#anon
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#not really a vent - just a quick thought before i sleep but like.#i keep thinking about that post#theres no way ill find it now but the gist was that 'joy is a warning bell to neurodivergent brains'#and how when we feel joy it means we've loosened up and that always leads to a problem --#whether its getting to be Too Much or saying the wrong thing or even just getting physically loose and clumsy#but it conditions the brain to see joy as something to fear#because relaxing means we're about to fuck something up#and ive been doing so well this year keeping up with and calling people#ive felt more social lately#literally everyone has been so incredibly kind to me and i want to express how grateful i am and how much i love you all#but every time i try to i get so choked up with fear#with each wave of happiness comes one of chest-squeezing fear#im not super upset or anything (its nice to know why its happening) i just wish i knew how to unlearn it ya know 🤷♀️#thats all - time to sleep#its so late -_-#awww its my pals birthday now!! earth day birthday :') too late rn but ill text him when i get up#rose rambles
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very quick and not quite my best but yesterday was kind of osiris's bday? so heres some strange sad (slightly erotic??) art of him based loosely on some vent art i made a while back :) i like to put this boy in situations. if you couldn't tell
#my art#osiris gaumond#dnd oc#yeahhh. yeah#very extremely personal stuff incoming brace yourselves#yesterday was the anniversary of the event that 'inspired' me to make osiris as a coping mechanism#will not go more in depth bc this is not therapy lmao but if you know anything about him or about me (recent history) you probably know#i am so incredibly proud of how far ive come since it happened#but when it was fresh i absolutely was not okay in the slightest i was completely torn apart#and right exactly when i needed it my friend created a campaign and asked me to join#so i made osiris :)#i didn't actually initially intend for him to be a metaphor/coping mechanism/therapy character at all#and i didnt realize how he was until months later fhjsdkfjksd#so he holds a special place in my heart because of that#and i will forever be grateful to that friend for starting that campaign and the other friends that are in that campaign with me#even if they dont know they're helping me process trauma gfdhjkdfjkhgfd#ok silly personal stuff over back to shitposting#FUCK I JUST REALIZED HIS EYES ARE FUCKING BACKWARDS#HIS LEFT EYE IS WHITE HIS RIGHT IS GREEN NOOOOO#CANT BELIEVE I DID THIS TO MY BOY ON HIS BIRTHDAY#uhhh lets pretend it was intentional and has Meaning
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oh bless I can finally delete my twitter account
#litchi.txt#/j#on a more serious note I just finished watching the video#wont be posting about it other than this#its great to see him compile stuff like this#I am proud of how well he delivered everything? like honestly wow#its messed up to see everything hes gone through compiled into 82 minutes#glad that its out there in such a well done manner#(also the editing was great. i know this is a serious video but I was laughing a lot thru it)#Im excited to see things might go back to normal?#Im glad he called out certain people#this was just. yes.#and I am so incredibly grateful that hes leaving tweeter#like holy shit I am so glad and if I see people whining about it I will hunt them down for their kneecaps#dont have anything else to say other than what everyone else has said already#but please lets not freak out even more#lets just. be calm. and enjoy life. and move on. and Be Normal just like he asked us to
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What exactly would you say were the problems with mcc as opposed to this event? Like how could noxcrew fix mcc?
First off, the events are just completely different in structure—MCC is a team-based game with a rotating slate of minigames that's for the most part a monthly event, whereas Squidcraft is a free-for-all that takes place once a year and has a new slate of events from year to year. I don't think Noxcrew can do much in that regard to 'fix things' other than introduce more games? However, I'm fully aware of how much time and effort that takes to do, and since because they're not actually paid anything to run the event I have no expectations for them to do so. So on the Noxcrew side of things? Not much LOL
My criticisms are levied more towards the community—I've been a Dream in MCC enjoyer for a long time, and there's always been quite a bit of animosity and hostility towards him. At the beginning (say MCC6-MCC13) I think that there was at least some basis for it, he was much more loose-lipped and brash with his criticisms and I'll be the first to admit that he was a little annoying sometimes. But that came with unwarranted things like people literally inventing tiers just to keep him away from the community's golden boy S-tiers, and it often just felt like he was othered from the community because he brought a competitiveness people weren't ready to face despite. yk. it being a competitive tournament.
Also, during mcc's return, 2021 dttwt had a lot of ppl who were nasty and annoying and incited mcc drama just to fight about it (I'd been on the receiving end of it a few times trust me LOL). So those two things combined soured the general mcc community towards Dream and everything only snowballed from there. For instance, MCC14 was a DISASTER for the green guardians and right after, people on the reddit didn't even stop to go "hey, maybe he had an off event, he's just some guy after all" and instead went Okay Well he underperformed he should be demoted a tier immediately, and it was incredibly frustrating as someone who knew that his performance was a one-off. Thankfully he went on to back-to-back win the next two events but demotion never left the realm of discussion—not to mention that mcc days just became a cesspool on twitter, people across the board talking shit about how the dteam made mcc too sweaty or how the hermits were being boring and should get better at pvp etc and it was just. not fun to be part of the community.
That all spilled over into Dream needing to be incredibly careful with his words, setting boundaries about not harassing Scott/Noxcrew, softening every criticism with praise so that dttwt wouldn't get up in arms about a non-issue all while ALSO having to retain his reputation with the redditors so that he wouldn't be tossed to the side the second he underperformed. That is to say, it felt stressful to be a fan, and in some mcc's he ended stream bowing under the pressure, apologizing for underperforming or not winning when it wasn't something that I think most of his viewers cared about, and it just made some mcc days feel like a downer because he couldn't just let himself have fun, he had to be the diplomat towards everyone.
This event, on the other hand, just felt a lot more welcoming. Partially, I think that's because of the fact that it's a FFA instead of a team tournament, but it's also just that it didn't feel like anyone was coming into the day with malicious intent nor odds stacked against him, and there were very few expectations of him other than "woah that's Dream the best minecrafter in the world he seems like a cool dude" where ppl acknowledged he was just some guy who's good at the game. He didn't need to be diplomatic per se, he could just be his corny, teasing self towards people like Spreen and Rubius and no one would have started a hate campaign towards him because they'd take it in jest, and he didn't have any statisticians to perform incredibly well for either. It was p obvious he wasn't nearly as wired as he normally is during mcc and it made it so much more fun that he could perform without the pressure we normally see him under. He was just hanging with his friends, being a goofball towards strangers, and having fun fucking around! Which, with the multifaceted pressure during MCC, just isn't possible.
disclaimer this is completely from the perspective of someone who has primarily watched Dream (and his close friends) for mcc since 2020 so these criticisms center around him !! so it's not really a general thing
#long post#tldr it's complicated. there is no static set of fixes that could be pulled off to make it enjoyable w the different formats imo#it's just a snowball of a bunch of different things that make mc.c kinda miserable as as dream liker compared to a fresh new event like thi#and don't get me wrong I still adore mc.c and am incredibly grateful for the memories I've made watching it for the past 3ish years#but I had more fun watching this event and blogging w dtblr than I have in ages watching mc.c#probably because I didn't have to worry about community fallout or sit with bated breath hoping twt didn't overreact about smth#plus he and the people around him genuinely seemed to be having a ton of fun so that helped a lot too :D#lyss answers#anon tag#sc2#lyss.mcc
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i hope ur doing okay <3
thank you 🧡 grief is a suffocating beast but the unending love for him keeps me breathing 🧡
#sorry to vomit in the tags but irl ive been focused on my mom and really only able to grab snippets of time to grieve myself so pls excuse:#the loss was not unexpected with pancreatic cancer though still horrifyingly (for lack of a lighter word) sudden#but he lived for four years after the first diagnosis - a still incredible feat#i pride myself on how much i look and take after him#i feel very loved that he very obviously held out until i got home#and i am so grateful that he trusted me to be the one he could lean on one last time#an unreasonably hot day in april really was the best he would have asked for#🧡🧡#(again sorry for all this. i didn't have the strength to stand and speak at the funeral so i'm spewing it everywhere else apparently lol)#ask#anon
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#hi guys... i know that i havent been the most active lately... mostly because work is hectic right now and all my free time is spent with#family friends and my bf#to be honest i don't know if i'll return to writing... I've slowly been losing motivation but it really is a shame#i've loved my time here and i don't know where my journey will go next#but i will keep my blog up for now and reblog stuff occasionally.#honestly it seems that since full time work and bf got combined I've had less and less time! its just a part of life#and i'm incredibly grateful for those who gave me advice durinf my online dating era... it all led up to my life right now and i couldn’t#be happier. sure our relationship isn't perfect and he isn’t but i truly feel that he's perfect for me. i'm the happiest that i've even been#and i'm thankful for u all that commented on my shitposts and talked me through it all. it got me through and even my bf thanks u all for#getting me through it as well :)#idk why i feel so sappy right now but i'm just feeling grateful.#and happy hehe. my bf met one of my oldest friends from my hometown and he just. idk. after we drove back he told me that he realized that#he's v protective of me when he's walking dt with me lol (it's filled with very strange people that yell) and i could tell lowkey because#his hand would squeeze mine and he would pull me toward him or beside or infront when we talked past sus people#and idk he was looking at me a certain way and i was like stop looking at me (he was gonna make me blush lol) but he just said 'why am i not#allowed to look at my future wife' !#and u guys i wanted to SCREAM like... wow my bf lowkey has rizz tf lol#idk i'm happy 😊 thats the life update see u guys sometimes :)#e.txt
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#when i was growing up my mom Only gave me incredibly inappropriate advice lmao.#i was raised by my toxic high school best friend-- except she was like that my whole life lmao.#she told me once to corner this girl i had problems w in the bathroom during class one day&beat the fuck out of her#&if i did to call my mom before i did it so she could call school&tell them she was taking me the period before so i had an alibi lmao.#she gossiped about me to my friends when she was angry w me-- something that actually ruined my life in a real way#when she was angry at me so she told a friend of mine i was cheating on my boyfriend at the time so that 'friend' told him#(she just wanted him to know he deserved better&she was there for him if he needed someone to talk to :))#&he beat me almost to death+threw me off the back of his motorcycle lmao.#when i mentioned that he thought i was cheating on him to my mom bc of a friend telling him i was my moms immediate response was to#deny vehemently that she has anything at all to do w it-- something i had not thought of until right then&realized the time my then bf#thought i cheated on him my mom was the only person who knew i had gone out. shed actually threatened to tell him herself#bc i was out bc i was arguing w her at the time lmao.#every memory i have of that woman makes me feel queasy lmao.#every time she yelled at me&told me i was depressing&i ruined everything w my horrible attitude.#the time she told me she didnt want to wait for me while i was limping up stairs bc she was in a bad mood&we were late for a movie#she wanted to see so she literally stomped her foot before yelling at me to hurry up lmao.#every time she called me selfish&cruel&insisted that the problem in every relationship i had was me#ESP the relationship i had w her.#i miss my mom sometimes. i hate my mom a lot of the time.#but more than anything i am just so fucking grateful she's out of my life.#i dont think ive changed a whole lot at my core throughout my life but im absolutely positive cutting her out of my life made it possible#for me to be a better person just in general.
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i mean it’s just kinda crazy cause. and forgive me if i sound somewhat spoiled here but. this trip im doing to take more credits and get experience and make connections etc is obviously expensive and i talked abt it with my parents. a lot before trying to do it. and somehow my dad didn’t understand that yk we would have to pay for it. ??? and is putting me in this spot of ‘figuring out what we’re gonna do about it’ and it’s like dude. i mean i’m going i paid for my fucking flights you know i’m. regardless i’ll be there. and i make $10/hr i have not been able to work consistently and when you don’t have thousands and thousands of dollars just sitting there accumulating more interest it doesn’t fucking last. like what exactly do you want me to say? i’ll drain all my accounts and give what little i have to you? tldr my main point here is the only way this man truly shows any kind of affection is through money and since he fucked me up im glad to take advantage of that lol like why wouldn’t i. so to have it thrown back in my face is just um an awful feeling. like im not even worth this to you. this is just too much. it truly does feel like someone put a number on love and im just not up there
#it’s not like we ever took trips or vacations or had super nice things or even. you know. like fucking furniture#and to be clear even when he does help me out with stuff it’s held over my head so it’s truly not even a good way of showing. love.#if you want to say that. like of course i’m grateful that i haven’t had to struggle to make ends meet in the way many people do because i#have his money and i’m not trying to pretend i don’t but like. i’ve also had fucking anxiety attacks thinking about spending money and#basically how much i would owe him for my whole life. like how do i buy myself out of obligation here.#and i never could rn i don’t have Money money#but he truly pulls the same shit he does on my mom like ‘well where does it all go???’#dad. i don’t have piles of money sitting around. oh i made 2000 at my summer job? wowzers incredible that goes so fucking fast#when i’ve had to pay to break my lease and something else for school and bills and groceries#and yeah ok let’s not pretend i don’t sometimes go out with people. and everything’s so expensive now. but even so i have a heart attack#any time i spend more than like 20 dollars so. i usually don’t.#it’s just sooo… 😵💫 like. damn yeah i do wish i had parents that just Took Care of things and i didn’t have to worry. but it’s like. i do ta#money from him and then i’m just expected to grovel forever and ever#which is why i do need to be more financially independent from him i literally can’t wait for that day i need to make actual money at some#point but i am just not someone who can work full time and go to school and the only way i qualify for my scholarships is if i go full time#and graduate on time so. here we are 👍#abby talks#aaaaand post. lmfao
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Austrlaia getting eagles and vampires at every show plus other album variations… again i must ask what do they have tjat we dont ☹️
#am i crazy i swear to god no one wants to tour here and then they think everyone is a casual fan 😭#is it because ed sheersn is so popular here??? are u holding tjat against us??? WE DONT ALL LISTEN TO HIM!!!!!#ok like honestly i am just grateful that mcr came here at all but i wish we could get cool setlists like everyone else 😢#NOT THAT IT WASNT INCREDIBLE ANYWAY OF COURSE
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"All jokes aside: he's agreeing because it's Charles, first and foremost. Pierre has always been a little too protective of Charles - he's the older one, so it's always been natural to draw Charles close to him and try and shield him from the horrors of the world.
It never truly worked, of course. Charles has seen more horrors in twenty-five years than many people see in their whole lives. But that instinct, that need to protect? It's never left."
i haven't stopped thinking about this. i can't stop thinking about this. it just-- i just. yeah, these two paragraphs took my breath and sanity away and i don't know how to move on. i don't know how you're able to describe love that matches my vision of it, but i feel so validated and acknowledged and just. aaaaghhhhhhhh;!)&-);!9!) thank you for writing the way you do, the way you describe love is the way i want it in my life and i have never read it so accurately put down on paper and i keep going back to your stories so i can feel a sense of humanity in myself and i just, yeah. thank you, katie. this means so much to me you have no idea 💗💗
oh my god, anon, i don't even know what to say 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️ except, holy shit, thank you so so so so so much!!!! this means... i have been staring at it all day, and i keep coming back, and just sitting there, wordless, because just. wow. this might be one of the most sincere and beautiful compliments i have ever received? and it means so, so much to me, anon, truly. the fact that my writing could mean so much to you?? it is just mind-blowing, and absolutely the best thing ever, and single-handedly making me want to never stop writing, i think. just. whoever you are, wherever you are - sending you ALL the love i can tonight. may you find a love like this in 2023 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
#asks & answers#anon#loveliest lovely anons ❤️#no this one... god i am truly just speechless#this means SO much anon; truly#thank you from the bottom of my heart#for not only feeling this way about my writing#but also taking the time to share it with me!#it means everything ❤️❤️#and i am just so so so incredibly touched and grateful to you#just. all my love ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ ALL OF IT#(and also on a proud writer note - AHHHHHH thank you so much for noticing those paragraphs omg!!)#(they were the first bits of characterisation i noted down before i'd even started writing ANY of the fic)#(i was just like: ok so why WOULD pierre agree to be fwb with charles like this? what is his character motivation?)#(and my mind immediately just said - protectiveness. bcs he loves sharl more than anyone and just wants to take care of him always)#(and that was the core i built my entire pierre characterisation in this fic around)#(so the fact that you not only noticed it but that it also meant this much to you?)#(just. i have never been so touched by a compliment to my writing before ❤️❤️❤️❤️)#(thank you thank you thank you a thousand times!)#fic: game for two#saving under: things to brighten the rainiest day ❤️
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well now that i’ve delivered my very altruistic forgiveness (sort of) to punk boy via drunk text, i am officially declaring no contact ever again except for basic pleasantries if i have to see him at events. going to focus on the important things in life (finding a hot girl to rail me)
#after everything i do still want the best for him#which i recognize is insane of me#he’s so fucked up and i just cannot help him#i am one young sensitive woman and he needs like… a therapist and a doctor and a dentist and probably AA meetings#and who knows what else#he doesn’t want my help or my care or any of that. or if he does then he’s too screwed up to accept it and it is what it is#it would not be smart of me to try to fix an incredibly damaged older guy obviously. i really really have to let this go for the last time#i just stupidly feel bad that he hasn’t been showing up to events since we ended things#but i should just be grateful i don’t have to deal with him for a while#if he wants to isolate himself then again! i can’t stop him!#it’s not my problem and it is honestly absurd to care at all after how he’s treated me
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#I'm begging pleading crying for good news from my last application#literally 3 days in a row I get rejection letters from two schools and found out about a friend's death#I'm doing my best to hold it together but I am NOT doing well#prayer helps#getting to work with my students today helped a lot#I'm so grateful for them even if I don't really know them that well yet#God all I want to do for the rest of my life is teach#is that so much to ask#the friend that died was from the neighborhood group I was really involved with as a teenager#it's been slowly falling apart since around the time I left and losing him feels like a last goodbye#so much of the best of us came from him#I think too many bad things happening at once can make it feel like the world is falling in around you#I'm so glad I have my friends though#I have such incredible friends and there's never a doubt in my mind how much they love me#it's been so good to lean on them
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